Hey, bimb!: The ring and the rain (4)

Suddenly it was raining hard. I guess the clouds shed the tears I couldn’t. I couldn’t even muster courage to talk, to hit you or even ask the questions I could have ask before.

Kali seems the same, the scent of mint is still there. I remember how you would say bimb mint is my thing, and Kali’s too. As I was trying to escape your gaze I've seen the ring in your finger. In your ring finger. You were shocked too, as I was about to utter a word, you’ve stop the car and said. “I really couldn’t imagine a life without you. I know I’m so selfish leaving you all alone. I know you’ve quit everything too, because of me. Because of what I did, I don’t want to reason out. I couldn’t take away all the pain you’ve been through. My sorry wouldn’t and couldn’t suffice.”

I felt the pain. That was the same face I saw when you said goodbye. The same face when you mentioned your Dad has a new fling, when your Mom set you up with a blind a date. I can see the pain in your eyes as you continue “I had to go, you know how mom would threaten me that she would kill herself. That day when we went to Sagada, I decided to choose mom over you. I had too. I went with her with my soul but left my heart to you. I’ve promised her I won’t contact you until I pass the bar, I never went to all the blind dates she set up for. I told your Dad everything too, that day when I picked you up at the uni. I called him. Told him about this dilemma, I told him to take care of you and once I’m back I would never be the asshole who left you. I’m sorry bimb. I know how hard it is for you. You’ve even left school and everything just to forget about me.”

All the tears that I tried to hold fall, I cried a bucket, a river of tears. As I reach your hands, did Dad gave you this ring? He told me, that once everything is fine the right guy would come. The right guy who has our ring would bring the joy and love that was once lost. Dad told me, that he went out and lost that ring. And he said, “the ring was lost, hope the new owner is not.” I really didn’t understood him. But now, I can.